My Power Problem

      The thought that I can do nothing without GOD is both scary and comforting. I am no stranger to thinking I am capable. One of the things I struggle with is related to a bigger struggle, which is thinking I can change the circumstances or even change myself on my own. I often tell myself that it is just that easy. That if I want to change I can. But I'm wrong.

     I have a problem with laziness. Procrastination. Each day the sun goes down and I'm getting ready for bed, I start to think. And I often realize how lazy I have been and I cringe at all the half-finished, undone projects. Then I tell myself that it's not a bad problem. I can change if I really want to. It's almost like saying "you can do anything you put your mind to" or "you can do anything if you try". 

     The thing is, the harder I try to fix myself and change for the better, the more frustrated I get. I keep in my mind that I can do this and I'm just not trying hard enough, and that's what throws me down the dark road. I am stuck in a loop of trying and failing, but thinking that I have the power to make myself put in the effort.

     Boy, is this proof that we need GOD. The fact is, no matter how much you beat yourself up for not doing, GOD is the one who grants you that very ability to do. HE can take it away any time. And that's when we realize that we never did so much as breathe without our maker being in the mix. HE gives us our breath and can take it away.

     So I realized that when I am prayerful and have my eyes set on JESUS it is easier to be productive. I feel better and am slow to get frustrated when something does not geet done. The fact that I am literally nothing without GOD hits me so hard. I can't do a thing without HIM. HE allows my every move, thought, or feeling.

Thanks for reading and hanging out! I hope this post has blessed you. 

-LuceeG R.

Heyo, quick note: Just so you know, from now on I will write my name LuceeG R or Lucee R. Don't worry, still the same person, just a different letter. Also, if you are reading this, the next post will be about what we can and can't control.